From flocking to fucking hell

14 07 2010

Today started well – I was flocking, or at least playing with the idea. Creativity was flowing, I was in the groove, relaxed. By the end of the day, I’d been swept up in the eddies and currents of an organisation and system at odds with me. I ended up in a dualistic, antagonistic state with a client, close to discord. The situation is redeemable and in the long run a learning point, not a catastrophe. A similar thing happened yesterday when two stances collided – mine, flexible, yet seething with a sense of injustice versus my adversary’s which was unmoving, with a parallel sense of righteousness. The only option was to walk away.

This is neither here nor there – what is more interesting is my awareness of it, contrasted with an ‘other’ state it is juxtaposed against as another option.

My thoughts are as follows:

In both situations I felt I was in a state of disharmony internally and the external relationship was one of discord. I felt acutely aware of an internal self-righting mechanism unable to balance. The image of the gyroscope arose spontaneously – just like a gyroscope juddering, falls out of balance, it needs to be set in motion again from a point of stillness. In terms of consciousness, this could equate to the still small point of dissolution, of stasis, or absorbtion, perfect balance, from which perfect spin can be unleashed.

So here’s a question for David – if XQ is about maths processes being a mirror of the processes within our minds, what is the mathematical process which is equivalent to the above?

What is the mathematical equivalent of balance? For that matter, of love, trust, terror, grief, purity, of pain?

I had a sense I could not get to =

But a maths problem cannot solve itself.

If the process of thought // maths processes

and processes are operators, eg +, -, =

with the goal being to solve, to find an answer, a resolution, the main operative being =

and we instigate the process mathematically, what is the instigator of the process mentally?

What is the hidden spinner of the gyroscope of consciousness?

Reason? Rationality? Intuition? Other (eg sixth sense, higher wisdom, ???)

Applying the thought experiment of the 5 dots and the sum allows different viewpoints to emerge, a shift in consciousness, but a clearly defined framework, // maths is lacking to allow balance in consciousness to be achieved. It exists, I’m sure – will defining it be possible? desirable?

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16 07 2010
happyseaurchin

when I read Brian rotman’s book
I didn’t like his subject-agent-person division
where the subject performs mathematical operations
the person does all the metacognitive processing
and the agent is the idealized performer
my mind is averse to analysis…

maths does resolve itself
an equation uses our mind to reach a solution…
but yes
maths on paper consists of dead squiggles
requiring a mind to breath life into it like any script…

I rather like your 1/1
or the means of generating equivalent fractions…
especially the direction towards simplification…

your question seems to have two directions
balance and origination…
we can reflect on the maths
and certain maths has effect on our minds in terms of movement and spin
but there is no consciousness in it
merely a map of it…

in terms of Buddhism
it is breathing and the stillness of mind that comes from meditation…

oh
and in both cases
you were experiencing a dyadic dynamic
that is
the spin is a mutual phenomena
both were party to it…
inevitable in a conversation
even with the best trained minds…
just sounds like the dance conducted was not agreeable
probably for either side…
haven’t thought about XQ and conversations…

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